Time for an epiphany?

It's times like this, that I really re-evaluate my life.. It's whenever there is a big change thats going on in my life, I sit and think I want to be a better person, I want to do something amazing.


Now, this might be coming out of nowhere, I may be half asleep, I may be drunk off that pint I had yesterday, I might be scared of all that's about to change or I might just be in one of those moods, cos I'm listening to sad songs (Personally, I think it's the latter)


The last time I had an epiphany I was on a train from Leeds to Blackburn. It was a Sunday afternoon, we were going past countless fields, countless sheep and I was listening to a bit of Imogen Heap on my mp3. Oh, and I was extremely hungover.

I have always had a list, call me crazy and morbid for waiting for fate, but it's a list of things I want to do before I die. (Just to clarify, it's not an ACTUAL list, it's a mental list - much easier to remove things off a mental list, no messing about with tippex or rubbers!) If you have ever seen the Disney cartoon, Alice in Wonderland, you will know the bit at the beginning where she is lying down in a field of flowers, right before she loses that damn dog. Well one of my things, is to lie in a field of sunflowers.


I don't actually know why, I have a feeling when I actually get round to it, I will get on my back, lie there and think 'Erm... What am I supposed to do now?' But it's still a wish nevertheless.


Anyway back to these epiphanys. This morning, I have been told off my friend that her brother was seriously injured in an assault and after a number of scans he is now found to have some form of tumour which he needs to have an operation to remove. I guess, I have become more aware of how things can change in a split second. The life you once knew may change in an instant. So, really, you need to embrace every moment you have, because you never know when people/things/animals/friends/places won't be around or will have changed.


Now in no way am I suggesting that we all start sniffing blades of grass or hugging trees to 'embrace' the moment, but to try and not take things for granted. To tell your loved ones you love them. The places you visit with such amazing memories, take pictures to remember how happy you were when around them. Cuddle your animals (Cautionary note: Not to death please!)Say thanks to your friends for nice things they do for you. Keep in touch with old friends you don't want to lose and enjoy what you have in that very second.

Right well that sad song has finished now and I'm listening to something a bit more upbeat, I think that means my epiphany is over. Hope it helped and if not at least you have had a good little giggle at my wierd thoughts. Ha.