This is a bit of a sombre post. I'm sorry.
I'm listening to Adele. I love her. She has the most amazing voice, but I have to be in a certain mood to listen to her. Just as I do with all music, I have my going out music, my chilling music, my creative music, and my contemplative music.
I feel a bit down today. I'm not sure why.
I don't think uni was what I was expecting. It is quite difficult. I know people say students have it easy, I dunno.
I feel like I am letting myself down. I wish I could try harder and keep the motivation but I can't. I can't keep an eye on cash flow, I can't get a job, I am struggling. The 'I can's' in my head are getting more and more distant as the days pass.
I'm beginning to think uni isn't for me. But then I have strived to come here for so long. Maybe I chose the wrong uni? But I love uni. Maybe it's not the right time for me? But I don't want to go back to a dead end job. I wish I had an amazing talent. Just like Adele.
Ahh well. Swings and roundabouts.
Ah! Nothing changes....Even at my age. I did'nt go to Uni. I went to Poole Tech. College. I felt the same way, l hated school, from the day l started till the day l finished. So, reluctantly l went. Took 4 'O' levels and 3 'A' levels, and, forced myself to study. Passed the lot with flying colours. Killed a couple of years too. No, not easy, but, l made it fun. So, got through that stage of my life. So, with those under my belt, it was onwards and upwards.
ReplyDeleteBut you will always have doubts, and, that as they say is life.
And, music.....Oh! Yes....That is in my Heart and Soul....Runs in my veins....Live by it.
It's seven in the morn'in and the first lemon tea of the day, no radio, just the lovely, lovely Alicia Keys in the background.
I be off to Wimborne about nine, coffee, pose round the shop, with Akon, on the iPod. Lovely, who could wish for more......God...Don't l waffle....Have a great weekend.....Be Good....Think Pink.....! :-)