Tonight is going to be the night...

Don't worry I haven't forgotten about the letter..



I shall write it next year (ha its only hours away, I am not putting it off for a whole year!)


This is the last post of 2010 so I wish you all a VERY HAPPY NEW YEAR!


I kinda feel that NYE is over rated, but I've had a crap year in some parts and a good year in some. The crap outweighs the good, but its not the time to reflect and regret. Its the time to look forward.


I watched Phil and Kirsties Home for Heroes last night - there was a guy who lost his legs whilst serving for our country and he said he didnt want a house on one level. He wanted to challenge himself and so he wanted a house with stairs so he could learn to go up them etc..


He said something that stuck in my head 'I dont want to focus on what I can't do, but what I can do'


I think thats what I am going to do. For too long, I have sat and regretted things I didnt do, or things I should have done. Now is the time to change, and its not because its a new year. Its because at the end of the year you kinda realise that in order to become a better person, you need to draw a line in the sand and start. Because the only one who can change you, is you.


And with that, I am going to love you and leave you and wish you all the very happiest of years ahead. Not to sound too corny or cliche, you just never know when this all comes to an end and Im pretty sure death is not as exciting as life.. What if this is it? Life may be the only adventure we have, so we may aswell make the most of it.


Jeeez, Whats happening to me in my old age? Im becoming all sentimental and nostalgic. Ohh I am sorry. I am sure I have many more stories and anecdotes to share with you in 2011, but until then... Get together, get happy and get sloshed! xxxxxxx

A letter I really need to write...

Well, I am finally back at home.

I have just been lounging around on my bed pondering over the year that is about to pass. And to say its been a turbulent one is an understatement.

I have had many many ups but many downs also. Hey, life is like a rollercoaster right?

This then got me thinking, I tell the world how I feel and what I do on a day to day basis. But there is one person I need to tell this too... I am sorry but I am going to get a little bit deep. (Once in a lifetime - take a mental picture of this moment!)

Once the new year is upon us.. I need to write a letter to a certain someone to tell them how I feel. Because they OUGHT to know this. They OUGHT to but they DON'T.

Sorry to keep you all in suspense for a little longer... But this kind of letter is deep and meaningful and I want to enjoy Christmas! Not ponder over life's difficulties. Ha.

Unfortunately I am not going to send it to the person it is meant to go to, I will post it on my blog and hopefully this will give me some closure (I can't send it anyway - ROYAL MAIL = NIGHTMARE) Ha.


Once this has been done, I shall hopefully be at peace and be able to carry on with lifes wierd and wonderful events.


Once again - Merry Christmas and A Happy New Year to you all!

Chivalry IS dead...

Well a hefty 9 hours later and I make it home in just about one piece.


The long trip from Bournemouth to Blackburn was worsened by someone having a seizure on the train, a collision with a railway bridge and of course SNOW.


Merely a few hours later and Im back in the arms of my cats so to speak! Ha. I had to manuoevre round two cats last night in bed - SQUASHED is not the word. Though in all fairness, at least I feel missed!



Theyve been following me around all day - I feel like Iv got a couple of snoops on my tail!


Anyway, the title of this is a little rant about humanity. I know, I know. I shouldnt be ranting at Christmas time but I am shocked by the lack of help I received yesterday by ANYONE. I was trudging along with a suitcase and 2 big bags and not one person offered to help me. And this is not because I am a damsel in distress, this is respect for another living thing. If I saw ANYONE struggling - then I would like to think I would take the time to help them. Unless I am late for my train - in which case it's 'Move! Get outta my way!' Ha. Not really :)


I looking forward to Christmas and New Year though - I have already prepared (yet another) mental list of New Years Resolutions:


1 - Do not drink as much. Vodka ruined my life. In other words, I have lost and ruined too much stuff whilst drunk. In actual fact, I had to leave my room in Bournmouth with a failed attempt at noodle making remains on my floor due to the lack of time!!


2 - Quit smoking. Again. I am determined to see this one through. I quit for like a week cold turkey so I know I can do it. Plus I live on the 2nd floor in Bournemouth and I STILL have to get the lift. How bad is that? The amount of times random people have called me lazy when I get into the lift and get out at 2 when they are going to 10. Ha! Lung capacity is my excuse :)


3 - This is a serious one. It's to be the best I can be. In every possible respect. As a student. As a friend. As a daughter. I feel that, for too long, I have kind of neglected other peoples needs and put them on a back burner because anything bad or anything that involves a little bit of effort gets forgotten about. Not any more. I am paying for my education and I need to ensure I get the best out of it. Again, with friends and family. I need to look after them and I need them to be proud to know me.


That is all :)

If I don't have time to write beforehand then please have an amazing Christmas and a wicked New Year!!!

'Tis nearly Christmas and Annabellka's getting fat...

Well.



To start with - as suggested with the title - I am putting on weight. A diet consisting of nothing but toast, noodles and cous cous does wonders for your wellbeing. NOT.



I went to court for some court reporting on Monday and was expected to dress smart and look sharp. I planned my outfit meticolously - Reporter's coat - check. Trendy glasses to make you look smart - check. 3 pens (incase they run out etc) - check. Notepad (which I almost forgot) - check.


So anyway, I ironed 3 shirts. One was a boring worky kind of blouse. One was a nice little short sleeved blouse and another was a puff sleeved grey and white stripy one. So I first tried on the grey and white stripy - IT WOULD NOT BUDGE PAST MY ARMS. It actually got stuck on my ACTUAL arms. I have never heard of that happening to ANYONE. EVER.


The second - the short sleeved white one. It got past my arms - woooohooo. Oh no. Don't celebrate just yet. I buttoned it up and I actually looked like Violet Beauregarde ( for all you Willy Wonka fans ) when she ate the gum that had 3 meals in one. No, not a blueberry. Well... possibly. But the about-to-explode look is not good on anyone.

I ended up having to wear the god damn wretched work blouse. Typical!


In other goings on recently - we had a few days of snow here. I like snow. In small doses. ie I don't like getting it thrown at me, I don't like slipping in it, I don't like how cold it is but to look at it's amazing and everything seems so much brighter as opposed to the usual doom and gloom in winter.


Nearly time to go home for Christmas too which should be exciting considering I haven't seen my Mother or dog and cats for quite a while. I miss them so much! I was given a fluffy throw (blanket type thing - I have to clarify the meaning as I told someone about my throw earlier, being that its the love of my life, and they could not understand what it was... They put it down to being a 'Northern Thing') by my work colleagues when I left and sometimes I snuggle it and pretend Im with my cats.. however other little blighters have cottoned on to the idea and I am gradually seeing a rise in Throw Theft.


Anyway I must get my beauty sleep. I have a 9am lecture and I am determined to attend!!!